I’m Kind of A Big Deal
When I publish a post I’m sensitive about, I argue with myself about having posted it. The secret to my insane rate of self disclosure here is that I entertain that argument only after I hit publish. Then I spend two days trying not to puke on my shoes when I think about it.
My discomfort always stems from the same thought- what if someone were to judge me just on that post? What if someone just clicks through here and this is their first impression of me? Or, more terrifying, what if someone who knows what my laugh sounds like reads it and it changes their perception of me for the worse? Of course, you know the end to this story- I always end up reassuring myself that not being true to myself is a much worse fate than losing favor with people.
Still, when I’m in the middle of reorganizing my kitchen cabinets and wondering what a fucking lunatic I am, I get a Twitter notification with a link to a sweet surprise.
Thank you, Angela, for the reminder that if you trust people with the truth of who you are, you’ll be rewarded by the ones who matter the most.
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I know it’s easier said than done…..but don’t you ever worry about anyone judging you. The faults we criticize others for are the ones we truly recognize within ourselves. So if they are judging you they are also judging themselves.
And you are VERy welcome! Your blog is one of my most favoritest to read.
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You are hot shit my dear!
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I was once told by a boss “Perception equals Reality”. (Her meaning to this was that what others perceive becomes your (and their) reality). To which I promptly responded “Bullshit”. Someone else’s perception may be THEIR reality, but it is not MY reality. If people are making judgments on a singular blog post, then shame on them. (FWIW, reading through all of your posts was what made me fall in love with you).
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That’s awesome! Congrats!
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