Hide and Seek With A Metaphor

by Cat

This blogging gig is a rough deal sometimes. Accompanying the pure joy of unabashed expression and the incredible sense of community is a responsibility. People read these words. People I know read these words. People talk to me and talk to each other and draw conclusions and make decisions about these words. My words. With you, my beloved internet, I am always safe. Those of you who know the sound of my laughter are a whole other matter. I have to be careful with you.

So I’ve avoided this post for long enough now that it will not let go of me until I let go of it.

I’ve realized over the past year that my friends and family feel the heights of my joy and the depths of my sorrow very nearly as if it were their own. You’ve been through so much for me, and I am careful to manage your expectations because it seems  like a moral imperative. That, to me, is part of being a good steward of your love and devotion.

Then there’s this whole other thing about not being able to render a description or extract meaning, at least not in my usual manner.

Imagine putting together a puzzle with no picture on the front of the box. That’s what I’m working with here. I can only give you some of the pieces.

He has kind eyes. They’re this pale green, like unpolished jade but with a hint of a something else I just can’t quite identify. He makes me a little shy. Well, relative to my normal staggering lack of shyness, anyway. He treats people well, well enough that he cannot walk down the street without at least a dozen greetings from friends and neighbors.  He’s talented and intelligent. There’s a stillness about him- not a lack of depth or current- more like a shoal flat that is deeper and faster than it might appear under casual observation. Like when you think you’re wading into a shallow and all of a sudden the water is chest-high and you’re struggling to keep your footing. At least that’s what happened to me.

Be Sociable, Share!

• 

• Tweet

11 comments

1 gail { 10.02.10 at 6:59 am }

How wonderful to feel that way again. Enjoy the ride.
gail recently posted..Friday Five

2 courtney { 10.02.10 at 12:01 pm }

i feel like people’s lives are finally starting to fall back into place on a huge collective level.

maybe autumn is truly magical.

3 magnolia { 10.02.10 at 2:24 pm }

that line about stillness really resonates with me. i know that feeling well. it’s what sustains me these days. that’s one hell of a turn of phrase. thanks for sharing it.
magnolia recently posted..the difficult kind

4 MsDarkstar { 10.02.10 at 3:17 pm }

Nothing more to say than *grin*

Happy that you’re happy.
MsDarkstar recently posted..F-Word Friday

5 Nicole @LaughOutloud { 10.02.10 at 6:24 pm }

Love this

6 Dream in Grey { 10.04.10 at 5:52 am }

Ooooooooooooooooooooh

that is all

7 Stephanie { 10.04.10 at 9:11 am }

I rarely get to experience you being speechless…the only times I ever have or when the emotions are more than words can express…
Stephanie recently posted..The Second Day Of October

8 Auntie { 10.04.10 at 2:37 pm }

Outwardly I’m sitting, smiling ever so slightly at you with my hands clasped together in front of my heart. Inwardly I’m standing, applauding you . . . smiling ear to ear for you and aching to give you both a hug.

9 verybadcat { 10.04.10 at 5:53 pm }

dude, you so just blew my cover. <3

10 Stephanie { 10.07.10 at 5:24 pm }

I am so happy for you. I remember your sweet face at brunch, and the glint in your eyes when you talked about this and I.AM.SO.HAPPY.

You deserve all this and more. Seize your dreams and make them reality, my sweet friend!

11 RedMango { 10.18.10 at 8:35 am }

Very nice post!

Leave a Comment

Name

E-mail

Website